Challenge me...

It took me a while, but finally I got some time to focus my head around this.

Kultarannikon kulkija, Lotta, to me challenged me with this.. well challenge.

Rules:
- thank the challenger
- tell 11 facts about yourself
- answer 11 questions that the challenger set for you
- come up with 11 questions for the people you will challenge
- choose 11 bloggers
- tell who have you chosen
- no sending it back

Thank you Lotta, :P I don’t have 11 people to challenge, but I’ll do my best with the rest.

11 facts about me:

1. I’m afraid of the darkness

I know, I’m 31, and yet… The noises that I hear when everyone is sleeping..
It is safe to say I don’t like going outside when its dark, which makes it impossible to move around this time of year in Finland. I stay safe inside with my candles. 

2. I hope to adopt a child some day.

I am well aware that I’ve been more than blessed with my two little boys. I’m hoping God will bless me with others too, some day. I’ve had a feeling for a long time that maybe that baby will come to us through adoption. Maybe. I hope.

3. Sometimes when the boys are fighting, I let them.

I keep them safe, but sometimes I feel like they will “fight it out” faster without me interfering. I secretly (well I guess not secretly anymore) feel insecure about this, but at the same time want them to learn how to come up with common ground by themselves. And they do. And I read in a book this is ok to let them to do this. And yet, I’m not sure.

4. My dream is to save the world.

I KNOW. Not possible. But maybe I’ll be able to save someones world someday.

5. I believe that I have a Guardian Angel that is looking after me.

There is.

6. My biggest fear in life is regrets.

I don’t want to be old and saying I could’ve, should’ve, would’ve but…

7. My funny passion in life is conflict resolution

In times of trouble I just want to get in there and fix it. 
Which is bad sometimes, since people need to have the space to fix their own situations. I don’t even want to think what kind of a mom I will be when the boys are bigger and start having life-issues. I guess I should focus on changing this attribute…

8. I focus on being happy

I believe that this is the only life we have. And I just want to be happy. Being true to myself to figure out what makes me happy isn’t always that easy, but I’m learning…

9. I started eating organic food this summer

I feel better. Julius feels better. So for now I see it as a benefit for us and the nature.

10. I’m learning to say no sometimes.

I like to help and as I said I love to fix things. It’s hard to say no when someone asks help. Sometimes you just have to.

11. I love the feeling after a good workout when your muscles hurt so much that you can barely work.

Did gymnastics for 15 years. Enough said. :)

The questions:

1. Linkitä kappale, joka kuvastaa sinua ja elämääsi juuri nyt. Perustelut.

A song that describes my life just now. I have to post two:

Strong describe my struggles during this time that I’ve stayed alone with the kids. It’s hard. But I guess it doesn’t necessarily show…

Anna’s version of JukkaPoika kylmästä lämpimään just fitted how I feel about my life now.. I miss Tonny and I’m so going there…. NOW :P

2. Elokuva, joka kosketti kovaa? Perustelut.

I seriously don't have one. I like to watch easy movies that take me out of this reality. Happy endings <3 :="" a="" at="" but="" grown="" is="" it="" moment="" nbsp="" of="" ot="" relaxing="" the="" up="" very="" way="">

 

3. Tunnistatko itsessäsi jotakin ennakkoluuloja? Mitä?

Prejudice. I think we all have them, it's just some of us show it more than the others.

I still struggle with the fact that doing something in a different way, does not mean someone does it wrong.

4. Rohkein tekosi? 

Dealing with angry parents at gymnastics... But also what were about to do, packing up the family and moving to tz.

5. Lempipaikkasi? (SR:ltä kierrätetty kysymys.)

Zanzibar. Perfectly clean white powder beach, hanging in a hammock under a palm tree shade...

6. Onko bloggaaminen aina itsensä korostamista?

Yes. But in a good way. For the ones that it's not a way of making money I find it's more of an interactive journaling.

But it is about you, your life. It takes courage to tell the harsh reality about everything, those blogs are harder to find. Whether you write for you own pleasure or as a way to inspire people it's still about finding a way to express yourself. 

7. Mistä valitit viimeksi? Miksi?

Sonera customer service. It sucked.

8. Mistä olet ylpeä suomalaisessa kulttuurissa?

I'm proud that Finnish people are proud of their nationality, language and history. The Finnish sisu.

It might seem like something natural, but unfortunately at least in Tanzania I see too much admiration for Europe, USA and English language. It's sad.

9. Mitä olet tehnyt tehdäksesi maailmasta vähän paremman paikan?

Not enough. Loved my kids. Given away small clothes. Recycling. Eating organic. No shopping for clothes since June (just me not the little guys, and I relapsed and bought two long sleeve tshirts because I was freezing)

10. (Valo)kuva (itsestäsi), josta pidät erityisen paljon? Näytä/kuvaile se ja kerro mikä siinä viehättää/voimauttaa.

I know, Julius is in this too. (gosh he was so small...) But I feel like this photo shows exactly who I am the love I have for my little guys. When I held Julius for the first time, I got a sense of beloning, I knew why I was put on this earth. Being a mother is who I am. I don't believe in losing yourself once you have kids, I still have my hobbies, I have my aspirations and dreams, just as me, but I know I am a good mom to my kids, and I want to be a great mom for them. Even if I don't reach any other dreams, I've done good in life.

11. Kuka sinä oikeasti olet?

I am me. A Mother. And a wife. Someone who wants to change the world, even if it is just mine.

Questions

1. What is your first memory?

2. What is your biggest regret?

3. Where are you now?

4. Where would you want to be now?

5. What is your greatest accomplishment?

6. Where do you want to be in ten years time?

7. What is the favorite part of your body?

8. When did you meet your best friend?

9. What is the best advice you've been given?

10. What is your guilty pleasure?

11. What is the one thing you want to do before you die?

As I said I don't have eleven people to challenge. I'm still very new to this blogging world :) But I'll challenge the ones that I know. Eevi,  Finnaussity, Emppu, Fanni. Two of these have been very inactive, so maybe it will motivate them since I love to read their stories :0). And please if you have some recommendations I'd love to find something new to read.