When I found out I'm pregnant I started to write my very early feelings down. But I didn't want to make them public just yet, so today I finally posted those few lines that I wrote down so long ago. All that was before the overwhelming nausea and vomiting started, when it was just brand new and quite scary at the same time...
Now I'm just super glad that finally the nausea shows sings of disappearing to the background, but unfortunately that has been replaced with severe pain in my lower abdomen. It is safe to say that I have not been blisfully happy during this pregnancy, like so many women around me discribe theirs, but have struggled quite alot.. Don't get me wrong I feel blessed about having this baby, but no one who has not been with their head down the toilet 5-10 times a day for 5 months in a row, doesn't get to have an opinnion on this.
Pretty soon it will be time to get everything ready for the baby. We've already been receiving some gifts and they just make it feel like that it is that much more real. Today though, I realized that May is approaching mid way, and I start my maternity leave on 21 July, so time is truly running out... At the same time I want the time to fly, but what happened to those nine months that we were supposed to have to get everything ready for the baby??? They should tell you in the beginning that it's not really nine months, it's one month of panic and disbelief, then 5 months of head down the toilet and trying to survive, and then actually two months of getting everything ready!!! So now we are trying to get everything ready and done before the little one makes an appearance :D
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