4 weeks and 4 days pregnant

Scared, happy, emotional, anxious... Good words to describe my feelings at the moment. Tonny is starting to get super exited and keeps asking how are we doing..

Time goes so slowly. Can't wait for it to show so I can share it with everyone :D All I want this angel to stay strong...

Starting to Panic

I need to pee all the time - can it already be because of the baby?
I feel nautious all the time - too soon or what?
I want to sleep 24 hours a day - that's just me??

Questions questions questions, I feel that I'm already overwhelmed, and want my mom. Of course she's in Thailand for the next three weeks. When she comes back - I'll be already 7 weeks pregnant... Then can I get an ultrasound and make sure my beautiful angel is ok???
Trying to relax, but I'm supposed to clean the house... Don't want to. I just want to think about the baby and google everything baby related... arggghhhhh...

Oh My...

I'm not ready to publish this yet, but I still want to note things down... I just don't want to forget even a day of this :D



Yesterday I thought that even though my period is not late yet I'll do the test. And very suprisingly I turns out that I am pregnant. I know I know, we have to wait and see how things turn out, but twice the test said that YES, you are! I feel different already. I feel important. I just pray everything will go on as it is supposed to.

Stealing Decoration Tips

So as you have been able to read from my previous posts, I am really trying to make a big deal of Christmas this year. In all honesty, I'm not the kind of person who can make beautiful things out of two strings, but I've decided (with my new-found proud to be a WIFE :P) that I'll try a bit more to make our home look like home made.

So, I stole some ideas (like any good housewife) from Eevi's blog. I really wanted to have our door decorated all the way :P. The thing is that since I suck at these things, and was able to find a basic instruction on Tiimari's website, I thought that if I just go to the shop they'll be able to give me good pointer's to make it easier. In the end, I did not get any good customer service.. Turns out that I knew MUCH more about how to go about it.. What a disappointment, but I decided not to let it put me down, or give up, so here's the result :D

the door

I had some ornaments left over so I copy/pasted another idea also. Looks sweet, at least in my opinion.

So maybe I'm not the best and most natural in artsy type things but I've tried and I was able to finish something. (OK, I had to go to the shop three times in total, but in the end I was able to finish it :D)

Now the real preparations start. I've still got some more christmas shopping to do, and then on Sunday we are cleaning the whole house from top to bottom (WE=Tonny and I), and then on buying all the food items as well as cooking ... The pork will enter the oven early Wednesday morning, so it'll be finished late that night. It'll be my second time cooking it so I'm still a bit nervours about it. Luckily I have a big family and they all have agreed to back me up in case of problems.

Show Must Go On

So earlier this fall I realized that it's impossible for me to go on like I used to. Work was bringing new challenges to me and while I absolutely love gymnastics, going to coach every day after work just didn't motivate me anymore. So I reduced, ALOT. For the past few months I've been coaching only twice a week, and the group I work with is just so amazing.

They're all aged between 4 to 6 years old, and there is 13 girls all at once. Suffice to say, not a super easy task to be teaching them gymnastics, but it has offered a great diversion from everything else. For one hour a week there is nothing else on my mind than just the girls.

Yesterday was the season ending Christmas show for the whole club. And we were to perform as well. It would be the first time that we put on a show, and needless to say I had some trouble coming up with a routine since I feel that the biggest thing we learned this season was how to stand in a queue. :D

So, it wasn't perfect, (most of the time at least one of the kids was not doing what they were supposed to) but it was so sweet, and I did not stop smiling the whole way through... AND they looked so so cute with their Santa hats as sparkly clothes (this was not mandatory, but for some reason it was the hit of the day :D).

Can't wait for next year when I get to start working with them again.

Christmas List

When I was a kid it was always hard for me to understand the pressure that mom's go through to set everything up for the big day. And now, for the first Christmas at our own home, as husband and wife, I get that same feeling, "need", to get everything perfect. I wouldn't describe the feeling to be negative at all, just a little extra kick in the b-hind to get things going.

So, for me, a way to release a stress of multiple tasks has been making a list of all the things that I need to do. It works in two ways - 1) I don't have to worry that I'll forget anything 2) I get a nice feeling of accomplishment when I can tick off any given task from the list.

So here's my pre-Christmas list:

TO DO AROUND THE APARTMENT

1. finish all the laundry
2. separate good usable clothes off the ones that I don't use
3. clean the closet
4. organize office and corridor closets again
5. storage everything unnecessary (esp. cd's, dvd's and books)
6. bring out decorations
7. make new decorations
8. clean thoroughly
9. decorate
10. try to do something to office
11. storage wedding dress + other wedding things

TO SHOP

decoration things for door
outside decorations
Christmas present for mum
Minna's, Aki's birthday present
Daniel's name's day present
table for corridor
look for a chair
lamp for corner
lamp for living room
mini-table
big vase for decorations
small basket for table
take pics to be framed
talk to dad about hanging the pics
buy presents for rest of the family
candles
table cloths
take Tonny's watch to be fixed

HAVE ALL OF THIS FINISHED BY 20th.

Lot's to do, but not impossible. At least I have a hubby to help me. Christmas is fun, right??

Dreaming of a White Christmas

I missed Christmas last year, because we were on a safari in Tanzania, and I've been waiting for it to come around this year so bad. I'm doing the whole family thing. Mom and Jouni are not around but I've invited Dad and Grandma over as well as Miikka and Minna, Jarkko and Daniel. I think Tonny's family might join us as well, but anyways it's going to be so nice just to relax and enjoy everyone's company.

I'm being a good housewife and cooking the whole christmas meal, with a huge KINKKU and everything. It's nice, for the first time in years I get to spend the chirstmas in a place that feels like HOME and with family. I don't know when was the last time I did that. For years now my christmas has been a bit of a chaos. Normally we try to divide the day smoothly between my mom and dad and always end up feeling like we failed totally. I just can't wait when we have children of our own and it truly becomes a huge family gathering. Kids just make Christmas feel so much nicer and their precense gives a good reason to be silly and go all crazy with decorations and preparations.

I actually have a big Christmas wish this year.. but I'll let you know whether I got it or not only after.. ;)