My Love the Party Planner

The past few months Tonny has been finding new ways to express his creativity and social abilities. Not a partyer himself, he enjoys organizing them. During this spring he has organized two black and white parties, a reggae jam, as well as an benefit concert for the people in Haiti. (We're talking some serious performers etc.) Every time the quality gets better and better and people have a good time. I am so proud of him, while unfortunately I've had to stay home the last two parties, because of severe nausea and other pregnancy issues.

The boys posing at the red carpet

Thruthfully, it really makes no difference whether I'm home or at the party, I might be in bed attempting to sleep, but can only relax when my love is back home safely and has shared the exciting events of the evening. It is just amazing how Tonny has the energy to do all this on top of his every day responsibilities. I guess when you are reaching for your dreams energy just keeps flowing...

Just Amazing

Today Tonny and I faced our first troubles with our little baby. And yes, I know the baby is still inside me, but we went to an ultrasound (20-week appointment) to check everything is ok, but someone didn't want to make it an easy task. It actually started yesterday already, when the midwife was only able to take measurements but failed to get our little ball turn around to check heart and kindeys etc.

So today we tried again. After being there for 40 minutes we were finally done. Before we were done though I had to run 6 floors up and down, jump around the room and eat candy because someone was being stubborn. Fortunately all the tests were good, and no abnormalities could be seen for now atleast and we also found out that we are having a little baby boy.

We're both super excited and working at the moment seems like such a waste of time. I'm trying to cool down, but all I want to do is to tell anyone who wants to listen that I'm having a baby boy.. ohh... bliss..

Quietness...

I know, I know, I know... I've been dead quiet for a very long time.. Everything is fine it's just that I've been spending most of my time getting to know many toilets of Finland. If the information has not yet reached you I am pregnant. And while it's amazing and wonderful and I can't wait for our little baby to come out already for me this time hasn't been the most enjoyable of my life. I know some women get to experience that, but I've been following my mother's footsteps and vomiting all the way through. So, for me, at the moment, I am super anxious to get through this part. Part of me is worried that because this is not getting any better that by the time I start feeling better I'll be huge and suffering from many other things. Don't get me wrong, we're both very happy and feel truly blessed. I just wish I could feel blessed in somewhere else than a toilet.

First official belly photo. I've been lazy about them but realized this morning, that if I plan on seeing any progress I better start. I feel huge already....

This one is the weirdest for me. I'm lying down on my back, before breakfast... Looks like some alien trying to push through (comment made by my lovely friend) but she's right. I know I'll get used to it, but still... It's not like this every morning, I guess our little Tiger was just streching out the living quarters :D

4 weeks and 4 days pregnant

Scared, happy, emotional, anxious... Good words to describe my feelings at the moment. Tonny is starting to get super exited and keeps asking how are we doing..

Time goes so slowly. Can't wait for it to show so I can share it with everyone :D All I want this angel to stay strong...

Starting to Panic

I need to pee all the time - can it already be because of the baby?
I feel nautious all the time - too soon or what?
I want to sleep 24 hours a day - that's just me??

Questions questions questions, I feel that I'm already overwhelmed, and want my mom. Of course she's in Thailand for the next three weeks. When she comes back - I'll be already 7 weeks pregnant... Then can I get an ultrasound and make sure my beautiful angel is ok???
Trying to relax, but I'm supposed to clean the house... Don't want to. I just want to think about the baby and google everything baby related... arggghhhhh...

Oh My...

I'm not ready to publish this yet, but I still want to note things down... I just don't want to forget even a day of this :D



Yesterday I thought that even though my period is not late yet I'll do the test. And very suprisingly I turns out that I am pregnant. I know I know, we have to wait and see how things turn out, but twice the test said that YES, you are! I feel different already. I feel important. I just pray everything will go on as it is supposed to.